Adding to the list of disgusting bugs in my apartment: cockroaches. Two dead ones on my kitchen floor. Big ugly black ones. I have officially had a nervous breakdown. Don’t even try to talk to me today, it won’t matter. I’ve concluded that I hate my life all because of the cockroaches. I don’t have a kitty to tell my troubles to. I have nobody to love and come home to. I have nothing. There is nothing good about living alone anymore. I liked the privacy, but now I just want to be loved and I want a family. But I’ve concluded that the only roommates I’ll have anytime soon are cockroaches, spiders, and centipedes. The entire situation would be different if there was someone else here to make me laugh. Instead I’m crying my eyes out because I realized just how sad my life is. How much I hate it. How hopeless I feel. I’d pack my things and move right now but if I did I wouldn’t be able to afford Christmas presents for everyone …. and where would I go anyways? Another lonely small apartment with a whole new set of things I hate. I just wanted to pay off my other credit card first. The additional income from no debt and not smoking should give me enough to live on my own in a nice place. I feel like I’m stuck here forever trying to dig myself out of a hole and someone just keeps throwing more dirt on top of me. I have no furniture either. I can’t afford a new bed and mine is falling apart. Not that I sleep in it but I would if I had a real bedroom. I would if I didn’t fear that the box springs were going to burst through my mattress at any moment and stab a vital organ. I’m a 24 year old girl with nothing. If I died I would have nothing to give to anyone. But I don’t really care because these material things aren’t what is upsetting me. I’m upset because I have nobody. And I have cockroaches. I’ve got to get out. If I stay here one more second I’m going to have my third nervous breakdown of the day.
I’ve totally been there with the cockroaches. I wanted to destroy my entire apartment building when I found them. Tips I can share: Invest in Tupperware containers and keep as much food as possible in them, it cuts down on the attractive smell of food and it ensures you won’t find bugs in your food. Try to locate the source of the nest or enter point and spray the hell out of it with cockroach Raid. If you can ventilate your apt while doing it that’s for the best, but I sprayed 3 or 4 cans of the stuff in my apt and I’m not dead yet. I’m sure I just caused the cockroaches to go to my neighbors’ apartments, but frankly I don’t care. I haven’t seen them since my weeklong Raid fest and that works for me.
Luckily I have no food so I don’t know what the hell they are going to live off of. And interestingly the two dead cockroaches were right in front of my front door. There is a silver seal along the bottom of the door and a tiny gap where the seal meets the wooden door frame. They were both right there and it appears that they were caught in a cobweb that was forming along the corner of the room. Isn’t that delightful! Spiderwebs and cockroaches … too bad a centipede didn’t join in the party too. Anyways, I sprayed raid in the crack all through the kitchen … and bought a bunch of those roach motel things. I think a can of gasoline and a match is really what this place needs.