It is 10 something pm. I want to go to bed so I can put myself out of my misery but since I didn’t get up until 12pm today I’ve barely been up for 10 hours. I’m beginning to despise evening because I just want to smoke. Especially when I have nothing to distract me. Talking helps. Chewing gum helps but I don’t have any more gum and I’m not going outside right now to get any because I’d get mauled by drunk idiots. Anyways, the feeling will pass. Today was better than yesterday and yesterday was better than the day before. Before I know it I’ll hit the one week mark ….. then two weeks, three weeks and so on until I eventually quit counting and can officially mark myself down as a non-smoker. (Insert deep sigh).
My apartment smells like a flower / soap / candle manufacturing company. I still don’t smell smoke anywhere but I’m making sure I have lots of scented things to occupy my nostrils just in case there is some hiding out somewhere. Actually my Glade Plugin is just way too strong right now and last night when I came home I thought I was going to suffocate on it. Those little glade things sure do a whopping job on small apartments.
I only work 13 days in the month of October. The rest of the month is paid vacation. October is a great month for making money while sitting on my ass at home. I enjoy October. I am coming to appreciate non-Christian holidays. I wonder if there is some kind of world religious center that observes every holiday for every religion. If so I think I’m going to apply for a job there. Next week I have Tuesday and Wednesday off. I wish I would have taken Monday off, then I wouldn’t have to go back to work until Thursday. That’s ok though. I really need something to occupy myself with so I don’t sit around and drive myself crazy by analyzing things and wanting to smoke. So if there is anyone out there who is going to be in the Oakland area and doesn’t have a job they have to be at on Tuesday or Wednesday I’m totally free to hang out.
My computer died earlier today. It contracted some virus that caused me to no longer have a task manager or a registry. It was kind of bad but luckily Todd was on his way over anyways so he came to the rescue. He can fix stuff like that in a fraction of the time it takes me to do it. I can usually fix my own computer issues. I started with Ad-Aware but when it got to the end and started removing files, the virus got pissed and made about 1,000 black dos boxes repeatedly appear all over my screen till I had no choice but to hold in the button and turn off the computer. After that I really wasn’t sure I wanted to turn it back on. Anyways, its fixed now and I’m listening to some good music while watching FOX News in mute mode. Good stuff.
Last night I went out w/ Brian but I didn’t get my Pina Colada 🙁 …. they didn’t have any, but thats ok. I enjoyed watching some messed up girl almost pass out at the bar. Oh and the guy who came over and asked me if his friend looked like someone. I think I said Ricky Martin and he didn’t really like that answer because I was supposed to say Ben Affleck. He didn’t look like Ben Affleck but whatever. People are dumb.
The weather forecast says 80’s for the beginning of the week. That is nice considering that it is October and that usually means that nice weather is officially over. I want to go to Kennywood Fright Nights around Halloween but only if it isn’t snowing by the end of October. So I’m not making official plans to go yet.
I had a civil meeting with Todd today. It was good. He grew a beard which sounds scary but actually looks cute in a scruffy kind of Todd way. I liked it. After that I went to Wendy’s and bought a caesar side salad and a chicken sandwich. I came home, ate it, talked on the phone, and sat here. Phew! Sure you can handle all the excitement??
Anyways, I think I’m back on the upswing of life. I’m no longer having a nervous breakdown daily so I’m just back to being extra boring. Sorry there is never any drama around here. I’m just not cool enough for that.