Yesterday was a crappy day and I didn’t want to talk to anyone. I felt surreal all day because I hadn’t slept the night before or very much all weekend. I was beyond tired and it was making me think irrational thoughts that I wouldn’t normally be thinking about. In my state of tiredness everything just seemed so messed up. I kept asking myself “Is this really my life?” It was like being on drugs … everything just seemed like it couldn’t possibly be the way it was.
Anyways, I’m still blaming the sleeplessness on the withdrawal / stress in my life since most of my problems are in my head. That would explain my dizziness, upset stomach, and other crazy symptoms. The only other symptom that it matches with is definitely not what you are thinking. Ha, that isn’t even possible unless someone came in and took advantage of me last night when I was zonked out since I probably wouldn’t have noticed.
Anyways, you all know what I do when I’m feeling sorry for myself. Yeah that’s right. I go out and get myself another really cute coffee mug. And since Christmas is coming, it has to be a Christmas mug.
My friend who is studying chinese medicine gave me some tea to make me sleep – of course that is why I had to buy a new mug. It was going to be my happy Christmas tea mug. I thought maybe it would make the tea taste better since I hate tea. And this particular tea smelled like tree branches mixed with catnip and potpurri. Anything to sleep though. I was desperate. Anyways, I came home yesterday and got out my new mug and my bags of tea and rinsed out the new mug. That is when I noticed this sticker:
I don’t really know if this is a common warning label, but I was under the impression that lead was no longer used in making things like ceramic painted things but I guess I’m wrong. I was going to ignore it, but that label just got the best of me and I decided that dreaming about having children with deformed bodies and three heads wasn’t really a risk I was willing to take just to drink from a cute new mug. So I made the tea in my other Christmas mug and the tea was just plain disgusting. So I said screw it and I watched the hockey game. After it was over I tried to drink the tea again because one who thinks irrationally due to sleep deprivation believes that something will taste different than it did earlier even though it is the exact same thing. Nasty tea. By 12:30 I was still awake so I finally said screw it and took sleeping pills. Whoo.
I have nothing else right now. I have to go back to work.