Archive for October, 2003

Sorry for the lack of updating

Thursday, October 30th, 2003

It has been a rough week. I have had many tests, presentations, and of course work. Now I am going out in search of halloween fun, so I promise to write more than three sentences of meaningful stuff sometime this weekend. Happy Halloween!

Excuse for laziness

Wednesday, October 22nd, 2003

Today I went to Blockbuster and acquired a membership so I could rent some movies. I really wanted to rent the movie “Wall Street” because I have seen bits and pieces of it, but never the whole movie. In general, the movie is stupid and boring, however, it is kind of cool to find something you can directly relate to in the real world after endless classes of stock-market information. There were actually quotes and references in the movie that I understood. It was like, woah … yeah maybe I’ll never understand all the crazy sci-fi movies, or the complexity of the Matrix, but I can sure relate to boring movies about insider-trading scandals.
I also rented 28 Days, starring Sandra Bullock. She is a good actress and I have thoroughly enjoyed every movie she has been in. Except for that one sister witch movie that came out a few years ago. That one was kind of dumb. And “Hope Floats” was ok, but I wanted to kill her ugly little daughter. Anyways … so you can figure out what I did all night, layed in bed and watched movies. I could be doing a lot of other things, but I’m tired. I’m tired of working and going to school, getting up at 7am every morning and never going to sleep until about 1am. Mornings have been better though, since the discovery of blueberry toaster-strudels and coffee in a tea bag.
I have a headache right now, and I can’t stop yawning. I don’t ever want to work again because laying around and watching movies is much more fun. I hope I win the lottery and never have to work again. Then I can do what I really want to do: drink coffee, buy a mansion, have lots of kitties, and become the president of every animal shelter in the country. I could just travel from shelter to shelter, caring for animals. When I’m old I will be like the Mother Theresa of animals.
Headache hurts and so do my ovaries. I am sick and I need some lovin’. I think the bags under my eyes have tripled in size over the last few months. I’m so tired, so so tired.

I hate my job

Friday, October 17th, 2003

Working really sucks sometimes, especially when I have to work from 5-11, not get home until midnight, and then be back at work again by 10am. I hate working in the evenings because everyone is retarded. At least during the day I work with kind of cool normal people. At night I feel like I do everything, and everyone else stands around and watches baseball. If I stand there and watch baseball, Carl will tell me to do something. Tonight especially irritated me because nobody did ANYTHING except for me. It was quite obvious that everyone stood around the TV and yelled, while I had 48 things to do. I had to fill 6,000 cups up with disgusting shit (aka bleu cheese dressing). The smell of it was making me nausous, and upon getting some on my finger, I began to gag. Sorry, might sound stupid, but bleu cheese dressing is the most disgusting stuff on the face of the earth. I made 400,000 boxes of various sizes. I carried 7 million things up and down the steps all night, and not once did someone offer to help me. I’m too short to reach anything, so I have to climb onto things and it is dangerous. Does anyone care that I could fall into the oven and die? Nope. Nobody cares, and I am sick of it. Carl doesn’t know how to walk, and he is retarded. He walks backwards and like falls on me 50 times a night. Someday I am just going to stand there with a knife in my hand. Just kidding. It is really annoying though. If I run out of money, I have to ask Carl at least 7 times before what I have said sinks in. Ugly people constantly come into the store and have the gayest requests just to make my life more difficult. I hate it. Sometimes I wish I could rip certain co-workers vocal chords out of their throat because I think I am going to explode if I hear one more word, or if they repeat the same lame retarded ugly ass words one more time. I think I will end up killing everyone there if I have to look at them much longer. Time to graduate and look for a job, move out of this shit-hole neighborhood, and get a cat.

Why is there not infinite time?

Monday, October 13th, 2003

I took off work again today because if I had to work I would never finish this insane pile of crap that I need to do for that senseless thing called college. Arghh. Oh well, I’d rather study for tests than work anyways. I wish someone would pay me to study, well that is supposed to happen in the long-run, right? Someone tell me that this is all going to pay off in the end, please! If not, I’m quitting right now. I am going outside to bask in the sun, be one with nature, and feed squirrels cheesy-puffs all day long!
Anyways, here is a recap of my weekend. Friday I did nothing. I was planning on hanging out with Todd, but for some reason I turned into an evil-demon and he did not want to be around me (my own fault). So I sat around and contemplated the suckiness of life and how I might as well just go to bed because going outside would guarantee a deadly outcome. Well, death sounded kind of fun, but I don?t know what fun is, so I just sat around and pouted a lot.
So Saturday I worked all day, and then I came home, and played the “How much dirty laundry can I stuff into this mesh bag” game. After stuffing as much as could be stuffed, I slung it over my head and whisked myself off to the Laundromat on my magic carpet. Unfortunately my magic carpet had a weight limit and I came crashing down to the earth. I had to pursue the only logical alternative and hop on a bus to the ever so fantastic Econo-Wash. You may think I am being sarcastic; however Econo-Wash is the best Laundromat I have encountered thus far in my life. You ask me why? Ok, then I shall tell you! Econo-Wash is equipped with trashy people, however it does include benefits such as dryers that make all of your clothes toasty in 32 minutes or less and cost only $1. In addition, one dryer can still dry 1.5 loads of laundry in 32 minutes or less. How can one resist? And not only that, but Econo-Wash also has a state-of-the-art coffee machine with an array of coffee to choose from, and hot chocolate and chicken soup to boot!
Anyways, Todd picked me up from the Laundromat and I came back here and got a quick shower so I could don my (freshly clean) gay apparel, and we zoomed off to the land of somewhere Penn Hills’sh to drive past a house. Todd was thinking about buying this house out there; however that is not happening anymore because it isn’t up to his standards, so we shall move forward onto the rest of the night. After that, we went to Kings Family Restaurant and I had the most glorious turkey dinner with turkey (of course), mashed potatoes, stuffing, and cranberry sauce! Mmm … licious! We also got a yummy platter plate with mmm good stuff.
Anyways, I was really excited to eat food because there is none of that food eating going on around here much these days. I mean I definitely eat, but I just never eat anything good. Nothing homey anyways.
On Sunday, I got up bright and early and made my way over to the grocery store where I encountered a bunch of not cool people. You can read about that in my previous rant. Anyways, I bought some breakfast food like toaster strudels and English muffins. Since I’m up by 7:00 every morning, I work during dinner time, and I come home really late, I decided that breakfast food is the only thing I have time to eat here. I also bought this instant coffee in a tea-bag stuff which is surprisingly awesome. You can just put the coffee-bag in a cup, put in some water, stick it in the microwave, and within two minutes you have a steaming delicious cup of coffee. Must say I’m really impressed with it. I find it to be the answer to all of my problems because I want to drink coffee in the morning before I go to school, but brewing a whole pot of coffee is pointless. But then, brewing only a small amount of coffee always makes the coffee taste like poop. I love coffee in a tea bag! Thank you!
I also bought like 10 cans of soup. I love soup. Today I bought some chicken noodle soup at the Cathedral because I was starving. I love Chicken Noodle Soup. In fact, I think I could live on toasted bagels, soup, and popcorn for the rest of my life. Once in a while I need a turkey dinner though.
Anyways, I guess I forgot that I have two tests and a paper due tomorrow. I’m done with the paper, almost done studying for my one test, but I have completely neglected the other test. Oh well, something has to get neglected when these times arise. I had to give a presentation today too. Only one more presentation to go for the rest of the semester. I don’t think I’ve ever had to give 5 presentations in one semester before, let alone within the first two months. Go presentations … I think I’m getting used to public speaking now.
Must go study study, have a wonderful night.

I just want to tell everyone to “Fuck Off”

Sunday, October 12th, 2003

I’m so sick of this cityI could puke. Today I went grocery shopping at Giant Eagle in Shadyside. I took extra time to catch the bus there, just so I wouldn’t have to go to Ghetto East Liberty Giant Eagle, which is equally as far anyways. Anyways, I am standing at the bus-stop and this stupid guy comes up to me and goes “Do you have 75c you can spare for the bus?” I just flat out said “No”. I have no reason to make up excuses. The asshole losers can figure it out themselves that I hate them and hope they all rot in Hell. Then, two seconds later a girl comes up to me and asks me if I have any cigarettes she can have. Again, I said “No”. Then a minute after that, the duo of loser-homos walk past me, the old man muttering something about “ungrateful bitch white-folk something”. What fucking ever. I’m sick of it. Go get a life, get a job, why the fuck can’t you leave me alone! One day a man asked me for a cigarette and I told him no. He was like at least 65. He was like “What do you mean NO?” I was like, “I mean NO, go buy your own like I do”. He then proceeded to say “Fuck you, You stinky ass bitch”. I was like “Yeah, fuck you too.” If I say no, that means no. Sorry that you are frustrated that your mooching-pan-handling career isn’t working out as planned. Go get a real job.
So, tonight I decided to go to the store before it got dark out. 6:00 still seemed reasonable. Of course not. A gang of 15 year olds decided to act very fucking homosexual and be all like “Hey, what are you doing tonight? Hey, hey, I’m asking you a question.” So I turned around and said, “I’m sorry, I’ll be busy until way after your bedtime.” Maybe I should not have said that to like 6 guys, but I don’t fucking care. I’m so sick of everything here that I want to puke. I can’t go outside anymore. It isn’t even this stupid neighborhood, its everywhere. But a big part of it is this neighborhood. I feel like a prisoner, and I hate it. I want to leave, and I want to leave now. Please, someone help me. I don’t know what to do.

I met Maddie Ross!

Sunday, October 12th, 2003

I totally forgot to tell everyone that I met Maddie Ross the other day in the Cathedral of Learning! I was walking and I saw her, and was like “woah! That is Maddie Ross!” I didn’t say anything, but then she looked at me and asked me if there was a cafeteria of some sort. I said yes and I told her where it was. Then I was like “Are you Maddie Ross from the Post-Gazette?” And she was all like “Yeah!” And I was all like “Cool!”
Anyways, if you don’t know who Maddie Ross is, I will tell you. She is a managing editor for the Post Gazette and she is on the Channel 11 news everyday to report about what is going to be in the Sunday paper. She has this crazy black hair that she wears up in a bun and she looks like Elvira, but in person she doesn’t look as scary.
Anyways, I never met anyone on TV, so I’m excited.

I need to move.

Thursday, October 9th, 2003

I need to move. I like my house and I really like my bedroom. Since the weather has become cold, I have noticed that it is really warm in here. Sometimes I have to open my window, and I don’t have to pay for the heat!
There is too much crime around here though. I cannot go outside once it becomes dark because I fear my life. I am not allowed to walk home from work because I could get raped or killed.
A few weeks ago, there was a shooting by the Sunoco about two blocks from my house. Today, there was a shooting/robbery/death at a small little store that is about 100 feet from my house. If I go outside and walk about 20 steps, I can see the place. That is way too close for me. Sometimes I walk that way to work, but I won’t today because I do not want to go near the crime scene. I am afraid to go to work, because some night a crazy person is going to come in and hold up Vento’s. It is inevitable, seriously. The Sunoco right beside Vento’s has been held up so many times that there are crazy signs outside of the store about not wearing hoods. Inside, you are separated from the cashier by bullet-proof windows, and you have to slide your money through a slot. Now maybe Vento’s has not been robbed because people in E. Liberty know that it is a “NO Bullshit” place and they have some respect for its owners. BUT, someday it is going to happen. I guess I should rephrase my previous statement to “I need to move and get a new job.”
I’ve been thinking about staying here until August, but since I do not have a lease I might move before then. Financially I can’t afford to move. I can’t afford to live by myself. Anyone in the Pgh. area need a roommate around April/May?? I don’t care where. Just not East Liberty or any other ghetto neighborhood. I am willing to live in: anywhere with buses that is not East Liberty or the equivalent of East Liberty.
Now I have to walk to work and hope that I’m not randomly shot. Drive-by shootings are becoming pretty popular around here. Especially on Hollow Ave. Ok, so I’ll walk down Sheridan Ave. Oh wait, someone got killed there today too. Well, I’ll just hide in my room for the rest of my life.

A New Layout Arrives

Saturday, October 4th, 2003

I think that this layout makes my journal much easier to read. Since I’ve started my journal, I haven’t had time to actually develop a cool theme because I’ve been busy slaving away in Hell. Anyways, I took today off from Hell and decided to spend some time at my computer.
I’m in love with my icon that I just randomly stole from somebody. It was perfect and color coordinated! The rest of my journal is still in transition, but I’m too tired to look at it anymore tonight.
My life is REALLY boring. I have nothing to talk about except school and work. If I had a life, I might be more interesting and I apologize.
I could spend time ranting and raving about stupid things in the world, but I don’t feel like it tonight.
Work has been boring, as usual. Of course there has been drama, but nobody really cares about that and nor do I.
I got a 94% on my Germanic Myths test and I’m still awaiting my grade from my Art test. I love easy classes and I wish I had majored in nothing so I could take easy classes all the time and never study.
Last night I hung out with my boyfriend and we watched TV. Yes, exciting. Before we hung out I spend the day at work. After work I went to the Library to meet with some classmates for a presentation we have to give Monday. The one guy who had our pertinent info sheet did not show up. I LOVE groups. I have two presentations to give this week. One on Monday, and one on Tuesday. Then I have another one next Monday, one on October 28th, and probably 8 more in-between those two dates for my super not fun Business Communications class.
I’m going to get another LJ sometime to post my pictures at. I still need somewhere to host my pictures though. My college account is an option, but my account is not going to last much longer. Todd’s webserver doesn’t like me anymore, so I’m going to have to take that up with him.
My boyfriend often finds dumb games on the internet and lets them control his life because they are really stupid. Anyways, since he added it to my favorites and I still think it is dumb, maybe you will find it interesting: Odd Todd’s Cook-ay SlotsENJOY!